tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-68859434811568261572024-02-19T17:40:44.029-08:00cyclops, you ask my honorable name...cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.comBlogger34125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-34791915040919826722013-01-04T10:01:00.001-08:002013-01-04T10:01:29.993-08:00haikus, raps, and cumberbatcha haiku ode to modern medicine:<br /><br />antibiotics<div>
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so, i have spent the last five days in bed unable to breathe. in my stubbornness, i kept thinking, you have a cold, suck it up and stop your whining. yesterday when i attempted to do dishes i started sweating and got winded...and that was the moment when i realized i probably needed to go to a doctor. twelve hours on antibiotics/super strong cough medicine and i already feel like a new person. what did people do before modern medicine...that's right, die. ps-yes, i did watch three star trek documentaries...don't worry about it. </div>
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i have been on winter break from north central since november, 19th. i am SO EXCITED to get back to teaching. i also am excited about the way my schedule worked out this term. huzzah, awesome job.</div>
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one of the things i love most about being a musician is that there's a never ending deluge of music to be learned. i'm only being about forty percent sarcastic about this comment. </div>
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as soon as i'm a little bit better i'm starting this sugar detox:<br />http://balancedbites.com/2012/12/the-biggest-21-day-sugar-detox-begins-on-january-1-2013.html</div>
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this mainly serves as a warning seeing as i'm sure i'll be cranky mccrabbypants the first few days of it. </div>
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but, i enjoyed the holidays a little too much. now, it's time to get back to work. in the immortal words of kassi bleifuss, 'mom's home'. </div>
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<br />sherlock perhaps was my greatest discovery of winter break. i've been cumberbatching all over.</div>
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colin morgan was merlin in the bbc merlin...which is totally worth the watch if you love costume period sci fi shows...which, who doesn't, right?</div>
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cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-91859188960055222312012-12-07T23:18:00.002-08:002012-12-10T09:16:51.099-08:00forgive me all my trespasses and take me to your glory...<br />
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take my hand and lead me to salvation. take my love, for love is everlasting and remember the truth that once was spoken. 'to love another person is to see the face of god.'<br />
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well, as most people who would read this blog would know, I LOVE LES MIS. i remember the first time i saw it vividly...because i was allergic to the theater and vehemently refused to leave. the moment, 'at the end of the day' started behind the scrim i was sold and wasn't going anywhere-even if my lungs were trying to escape my body.<br />
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i predict that the movie is going to be visually stunning and that anne hathaway might actually make me think that she can do more than look like a constipated fivel on screen. however, i'm like, 97% sure the singing is going to be a shit-show. there's going to be a lot of back tongue tension, fluttery vibrato, disney princess singing going on (i'm looking at you, seyfried).<br />
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i figured i'd make a collection of my dream les miserables recording...<br />
firstly, and i know this is going to be controversial but i LOVED alfie boe's, 'bring him home'<br />
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yes, i know colm wilkinson is the proverbial man...but, the way alfie sings this just makes me melt.<br />
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speaking of colm wilkinson...his epilogue makes me weep like an overgrown baby:<br />
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i'm certifiably, meh about samantha barks' eponine. i think the voice has potential but is a hot mess...how much more can someone love unnecessary glottal attacks, am i right? she also has no chest voice..which, you know, is sort of important for our dear ponine. she also nasalises her dipthongs (due at least in part to her tongue tension, which is totes visable in this clip)-which is petpeeve.com for me.<br />
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i was actually hoping that frances ruffelle's daughter would be considered for eponine...frances, as i'm sure most of you know was the original eponine.<br />
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i love that she actually sounds like a street urchin. (ps-is it a requirement to have killer cheek bones to be eponine-frances, lea, celia, even lame-mantha barks all have cheeks for weeks)<br />
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oh, if you're curious about frances' daughter, eliza doolitle, check it:<br />
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but, let's be honest, there is no finer eponine than lea solonga...yes, i have seen both the sutton foster and celia keenan bolger versions. celia keenan bolger is the vocal love of my life, but eponine just did not suit her.<br />
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also, if you've ever been curious, lea michele did do eponine pre-glee:<br />
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i feel since we've heard/seen so little of russell crowe in the trailers that he's either going to be amazing, or terrible.<br />
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but, you know who isn't terrible...norm lewis. i have such a voice crush on him! his porgy in porgy and bess, king triton in little mermaid, and his 2001 recording of elegies for angels, punks, and raging queens (aka my obsession).<br />
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lewis owning javert's suicide like a mother flippin' champ in the 2006 revival:<br />
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and boe and lewis in the confrontation scene from the 25th anniversary concert:<br />
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and when talking about javert and and valjean you can't forget to include this gem.<br />
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adult cosette is so boring and so often sung poorly. judy kuhn, aka the singing voice of disney's pocahontas is the exception. also, i predict that in the les mis inspired fashions yet to come, deep plunging lace v's will be all the rage:<br />
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he also can sing the crap out of one of my favorite kerrigan-lowdermilk songs:<br />
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i'd be remiss in not mentioning how awesome ramin karimloo was in the 25th anniversary special as enjolras.<br />
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just like vanessa williams, i've gone and saved the best for last...<br />
it's no secret that, 'i dreamed a dream' is in my top ten musical theatre songs of all time...<br />
fantine as a character is so heart breaking and her music is entirely reflective of that. her death sing, woof...insert me blubbering and rocking myself back and forth. now, lea solonga sang the stuffing out of, 'i dreamed a dream' both in the revival on broadway and in the 25th anniversary concert:<br />
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someone at some point decided it would be a good idea to have daphne rubin vega (original mimi in rent) do fantine...take-me-ooooouuuuut-of my misery. it's like fantine smoked five packs a day and then sang with helium...<br />
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so, friends, if anyone is still reading this, what are your thoughts on the upcoming movie?cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-21572142529696088252012-09-10T15:26:00.003-07:002012-09-10T15:26:50.631-07:00i've decided my fall look is young molly weasley professorial chic...killin' it, right?<br />
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i have spent the majority of the day arguing with the illinois tollway and completely understand most of dante's circles of hell...especially eight and nine...which led me to want to engage in seven. apparently years ago in one of my drives i missed one toll...they sent a bill, i paid what they sent me and told me on the phone that even though i paid $64 dollars for missing an eighty cent toll that i now owe $150. now, this is ludicrous to begin with but they wouldn't issue me an ipass until i made the payment. i wanted to ask the supervisor how she slept at night but resisted the urge.<br />
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i'm sitting at a whole foods in naperville waiting to meet up with eric wilberg for dinner. it's funny that me and a good friend from denver are currently both working in, 'the thrill'.<br />
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tonight are student voice placement auditions and i couldn't be more excited. it's like christmas for me. what are they going to sing? will any of them bust out queeny riffs? will i hear at least one stephen schwartz song? hopefully awesome show tunes will erase the rest of this day.<br />
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i went to a job interview today for a part time voice teacher position in northbrook and ten minutes into the interview i realized that the woman was interviewing me for the wrong job...so that was awesome. yes, it would indeed be a necessity for a music director to play piano...i'm here for the voice teacher position...sorry.<br />
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saturday i went to the barrel of monkey teacher training...it was awesome. i know there's a lot of mixed feelings about the teacher's strike. but, i don't think that some of the things the teachers are asking for are all that incredulous. air conditioning in school...that should be a given. i dare you to throw 40 eighth graders in a room that's about 120 degrees and try and teach them. it's not just good for the teachers, it's good for the students. schools that have stronger support staffs have stronger performing students...yadda, yadda, yadda. i do feel like people are perceiving this as being a financial issue but honestly, the teachers have said that's not the biggest of their issues and despite karen lewis' sometimes overly aggressive nature i think she's only a third of the problem...rahm and jean claude rounding out the other two thirds. let's just try and put down bruised egos and do what's best for the children.<br />
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joliver, out.cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-75472355774252562732012-09-07T07:16:00.002-07:002012-09-07T07:16:58.311-07:00so let the wind blow hard and wear the falling stars.last night i got a whopping thirty minutes of sleep...thanks to my sleep tracker i know just how little sleep i actually got.<br />
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as i sat staring at the ceiling this morning i decided that i should get up and go to the gym before work as opposed to afterward. i figured regardless of when i was going today it was going to be one of those workouts where you just slog it out...which was totally the case.<br />
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i had a moment where i was getting frustrated in the midst of the workout and gave myself an internal verbal smackdown. yes, this workout was most certainly not me in peak performance mode...but, i got up and got my ass there and did it. it wasn't pretty, but i did it.<br />
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then, as i was on the rowing machine i realized it was the first time since starting crossfit in december that i didn't have to move my knees out into a plie-esque position to accomodate for my stomach. it's funny that even in the midst of frustration the little things can bring you such joy if you just stop and realize that everything is a process.<br />
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i have been hesitant to weigh myself in this journey because i don't want to obsess over numbers. this change was started because i wanted to take better care of myself and try and become the best version of me that i can be..that being said, i DID weigh myself this weekend. i am officially 72 pounds down and i think that my goal of 100 at the year mark is totally attainable...but, if it doesn't happen, i'll still get up and go to the gym...because really, that's the victory.<br />
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i went to st. louis and it was wonderful. seeing friends and having farm to table feasts...pretty much perfection.<br />
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it's raining, i'm listening to trampled by turtles, and drinking pumpkin flavored d&d coffee...it's almost autumn, y'all.<br />
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i start my teaching job at north central as of sunday and couldn't be more elated.<br />
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i love chicago. i feel so much more myself here.<br />
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i think faceinhole.com should pay me to make funny awesome things...i made one yesterday that's pretty great but i'm waiting for the person i made it for to receive it in the mail before posting it publicly.<br />
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i am really hoping this one night of insomnia is an isolated case and not something that will become habit. (i found myself in the car saying, 'don't sell this farm ray, you gotta keep the farm'...you know, my brain thinks in field of dreams quotes when exhausted)<br />
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the highlights of the dnc for me: the last five minutes of obama's speech, biden being tough but gracious, michelle obama reminding people that she is in face a lawyer, elizabeth warren giving us all an economics lesson, bill clinton basically being politifact, and the castro smile...dang those boys are cute.<br />
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bruce covey poetry is beautiful.<br />
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i'm being terrible at finishing the book i'm reading. which is weird because i love it...i think i just don't want it to end.<br />
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i need to find a tap class.<br />
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alright, time to shower and get to the office.cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-32009258417628186102012-08-17T09:41:00.002-07:002012-08-17T21:10:58.855-07:00and it's all i can do to keep from falling in love with you...i'm approaching my two weeks in chicago mark.<br />
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i feel like things are finally coming together. i have a bed, and it is assembled. seriously though, the few hours i spent hopelessly attempting to assemble the frame by myself would be comical to the outside observer. i felt like i was trapped in an episode of a sit-com. imagine if you will me, an allen wrench, and all matters of props trying to make it possible to screw in the head and foot board to the sides of the bed. hopefully by the end of this weekend i will be entirely set up and all of my items will be in one apartment. currently my life is scattered in three different locations. i'm not complaining really, i just don't know where anything is...ever. which, is an odd experience for me. </div>
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this morning i made myself paleo scones and a strawberry peach compote...the perfect compliment to my coffee. a grand meal leads to a good start to your morning. huzzah!<br />
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cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-31094699764416409182012-07-27T12:03:00.004-07:002012-07-27T12:03:52.296-07:00don't question why she needs to be so free, she'll tell you it's the only way to be, she just can't be chained to a life where nothing's gained and nothing's lost at such a cost...the reality of leaving is setting in.<br />
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the goodbyes have started...goodbyes are the worst.<br />
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so, in an attempt to combat the sad i've decided to talk about this i'm excited for.<br />
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on my first day back to chicago i get to go to the wedding of my dear friend stina peterson and her soon to be husband john dufour. yay, love!<br />
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tuesday, august 7th i'm going to a <a href="http://www.pottermore.com/">harry potter</a> marathon. (you know you're jealous)<br />
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i bought new bed linens and am excited to decorate my room...thanks, <a href="http://www.ikea.com/us/en/">ikea</a>.<br />
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i found a <a href="http://www.chicagos-pizza.com/chicago-style-stuffed-pizza">place</a> in chicago that does gluten free deep dish pizza.<br />
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singing some wonderful <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charles_Griffes">griffes</a> music.<br />
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living within a six block radius of the majority of my friends.<br />
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buying a sweet bike and biking to said friends.<br />
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using my groupon at <a href="http://www.trekronorrestaurant.com/">tre k</a>.<br />
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seeing my friend, smash on the drive out. i have grown to love my stops in omaha...also, their whole foods there is ridiculously awesome.<br />
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as for now i should shower, get coffee, and go be productive (you know, get allergy medication and go to the gym) with my day. i didn't wake up until eleven! who am i?<br />
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also, i saw <a href="http://florenceandthemachine.net/">florence</a> at red rocks on wednesday. it was magical.<br />
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<span style="background-color: #444444; font-size: 13.5pt;">well, my time in denver is coming to a close. i always thought
when it was all said and done that i’d leave colorado without really looking
back-how wrong i was. not to say that i’m not excited for chicago, i am. i just
will miss some things here in denver.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 13.5pt;"><a href="http://operatheatreoftherockies.org/artistic/">my voice teacher</a>:<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 13.5pt;">martile rowland
is my hero and one of my biggest champions. seriously, that woman re-instilled
a love of singing. i will never forget the first conversation i had with her. i
was still living in chicago and had been arguing with the irs for two hours. i
got a call from a number with an area code i didn’t recognize and assumed it
was the irs calling me back. i picked up the phone and said a very venomous,
‘hello’. ‘hello, hello jessie? this is martile rowland’… ‘oh, i thought you
were the irs’. from that moment on i knew i’d like her. when i came out to
colorado, i had pretty much given up on singing. my last year of grad school
was rough. my teacher and i didn’t agree on anything in regards to my voice and
the lessons had become down right abusive. i came out to colorado to do vocal
arts symposium as a final hurrah to singing little did i know that the decision
to come out here for three weeks would end up changing the trajectory of my
life forever. three weeks after the end of vocal arts symposium i learned how to drive and moved out to
colorado. i came here to study with martile and sing the mother in hansel and
gretel with opera theatre of the rockies.
i thought i’d be here for a year, than two, and now i’m leaving after
six years. over the course of six years i’ve switched fachs, performed in three
mainstage shows with opera theatre of the rockies, and felt like i’ve become a
better person and singer. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 13.5pt;">two of the
closest friends i have in colorado were met within hours of landing here for
singing. claire anderson was the person assigned to come pick me up from the
airport when i came out here to sing for VAS. who would have guessed that it
would start a six year friendship that i attribute as one of my dearest. i met
marisa the first night of VAS and a year later she moved to colorado. i know
these girls will always be a phone call away but it will be sad not to have
yoga time or hbo time with them. i am so
lucky to have formed so many great friendships while out here. sarah s, amy,
rainey, sarah m, catie, linder, lauren, kevin, the list could just keep going
on. i will miss you all. you all have a standing invitation to come visit
chicago. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 13.5pt;"><a href="http://themodbo.wordpress.com/">modbo cabarets</a>:<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 13.5pt;"> fun, weird,
completely inappropriate. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 13.5pt;"><a href="http://www.crossfitjai.com/">my gym</a>:<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 13.5pt;">i never
thought i would be discussing how much i’m
going to miss my gym. honestly though, i was so fortunate to fall into this
community. they’re such a fun, funny, smart,
fit pack of weirdoes. i would never be able to thank tj and lindsay enough for
their kindness, motivation, and ass kicking. thank you to all who welcomed me
and made me felt a part of the group and not just like the fat girl in the
corner. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 13.5pt;"><a href="http://www.ygplayers.org/">my job</a>:<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 13.5pt;">i haven’t
made it one day since being back in denver without crying over leaving my job. the
kids i teach are so special. they make me laugh, challenge me, and give me hope
for the generation to come. seriously, if only i could move this entire place
and all the people in it with me, i would. in the three years i’ve worked at
ygp there has never been a day where i am not excited to go to my job. no
matter how crummy i feel, or what drama may have happened in my life, getting
up and going to work is a sheer joy. how many people actually get to say that? i
know how fortunate i’ve been and i don’t take that for granted…not even for an
instant. BEST JOB EVER. i am happy that marisa is taking it over. i feel like i’m
leaving them with someone who will not only be a great teacher but also someone
who will love and care for the kids here. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">This will be our reply to violence: to make music more intensely, more beautifully, more devotedly than ever before.</span><br />
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i woke up with a barrage of messages asking me if i was okay.<br />
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my mother's text was simple: call me when you wake up!<br />
needless to say, by now, most of you will understand </div>
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firstly, let me make explicitly clear: my heart is breaking for colorado. i teach kids who go to columbine. i teach people who's parents or aunts and uncles were at columbine when the shootings happen. i have seen how directly this impacts a community. columbine happened in 1999 and still people remember it like it happened yesterday you never forget that trauma...never.<br />
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secondly, let me make clear how much i hate the <a href="http://reason.com/blog/2012/07/20/half-assed-media-speculation-about-the-b">media</a>. speculation with no actual facts. at one point the local denver abc affiliate started talking about the weather at the apartment building of the suspected shooter.<br />
they also just showed a southwest plane for a good four minutes...granted, it was the shooter's father getting off the plane but, until more facts are collected and until the fbi figures out how to get into the apartment building the reporting seems like an exercise in futility.</div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">the argument that we can lessen violence with more violence and more guns is so unbelievably ludicrous.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #444444;">louie gohmert represents tyler, texas and just for shits and giggles i decided to look up their <a href="http://www.city-data.com/city/Tyler-Texas.html">city data</a>...wouldn't you know it, all of their crime related data is above average. now, i'm not naive, i know many factors go into it but, i mean...really, there has to be some congruence. </span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #444444;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #444444;">i also came across <a href="http://www.guardian.co.uk/news/datablog/2011/jan/10/gun-crime-us-state">this</a> which i think has some really interesting data to look at about the usage of guns in different states in different types of assaults...colorado ranks far lower than texas. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #444444;">i would just like to say that in events like this we tend far more to remember the name of the shooter and forget the names of the victims. twelve are confirmed dead, one of their names has been released. let's take a moment to remember <a href="http://sports.yahoo.com/blogs/nhl-puck-daddy/colorado-movie-theater-shooting-claims-life-hockey-blogger-151130034--nhl.html">jessica</a>.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white;">i leave you with the music of bernstein:</span><br />
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i feel like i always set resolutions at times that are not congruent with norms (new years, birthdays, etc)<br />
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resolution number one:<br />
my big resolution this year has been to unleash an inner athlete...i started the day before thanksgiving...you know, like normal people do.<br />
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now, usually my general klutziness has barred me from being able to do most physical activities in the past. the two people who will read this blog will know that i can literally break my toes walking five feet from my bed to the bathroom. as a kid i had terrible knee and asthma problems which led me not to participate in gym for the duration of my youth. i started swimming because it was something i could do that put no pressure on my knees and then my ear issues got in the way and the doctor told me i was no longer allowed to swim. i was essentially the girl in the bubble...<br />
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some weird thing came over me in november where i decided i wanted to try and be athletic. honestly, it wasn't even about loosing weight at first. it started with trying to regain a part of my childhood that i thought i never really got to experience.<br />
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so what happened in november?<br />
i went to go get my hair did at my favorite <a href="http://clementinesdenver.com/">denver salon</a> and two of the stylists (sarah-my stylist and lindsay) were discussing crossfit. now, i had heard of crossfit before but i assumed it was primarily for douchebags who were obsessed with their abs and lack of brain cells. granted, if we're being entirely honest some of those people do certainly exist. lindsay mentioned that her boyfriend had just opened a new <a href="http://www.crossfitjai.com/">crossfit </a>and that i should go...and the next morning i did.<br />
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in general i am not a shy or timid person with two blaring exceptions: boys (<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O38URvsTjjM">i'm like baby carrying that watermelon in dirty dancing</a>) and physical activities that aren't dancing (trust me dudes, i own the <a href="http://rockbar-denver.com/">dancefloor</a>). my first crossfit class there was two of us. absolutely nowhere to hide, nowhere to run: pure, unadulterated exposure. i have in my life been someone who has carefully constructed living a life where i only do the things i know i will succeed at (which will factor heavily into the second resolution of the year-but, more about that later). this was the first time, i tried something that i didn't think i'd be good at. my first day we were doing push presses and i push pressed a hundred pounds. it was like a gateway drug into physical fitness. i determined right then and there that i would huff and puff my way into becoming a crossfitter.<br />
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resolution number two: <br />
resolution number two came in february when i decided i was going to let myself start failing at things. if i failed it meant i tried...and that was an important step for me. i don't really do vulnerable well (foreshadowing of resolution number three)...and failing is vulnerability at it's most embarrassing or soul crushing. i started allowing myself to be more vulnerable...i even cried once at the gym-it was awful and totally cathartic. i feel as if i've encountered a totally different person in my skin.<br />
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this new found vulnerability also managed to bleed into other aspects of my life. it's made me a better performer and frankly, a better person. things that had formerly held the power to shut me down now were less likely to do so...or i was more inclined to be honest and say something hurt my feelings instead of stonewalling. recently, i had someone say something to me about the size of my arms on stage. it stung...a lot. then, i went and did my wod (workout of the day for you non crossfit folk) on monday and could easily clean and push press 85 pounds(the rx weight for the workout) and i stopped and had a moment where i was grateful for my large arms. they're strong and resilient and i like that.<br />
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resolution number three:<br />
at the start of all this i very specifically did not want to make my weight loss the narrative of my life. nor do i want it to be my narrative now. but, i do want a place where i can share what's going on...in the gym, on the stage, in life, <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O6kRqnfsBEc">yadda yadda yadda</a>. it's an attempt to be more honest in all aspects of my life and with this resolution i figured it was time to fire up ye ol' blog again. so friends, i'm back...and i know, i've said it before but i promise...there's far more intention to my blogging now.<br />
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huzzah!cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-91730887148924647682011-09-08T11:39:00.000-07:002011-09-08T13:23:43.658-07:00fall, i welcome you with open-sweater wearing-armsi can feel fall creeping in...and i am so.freaking.excited.<br /><br />fall is a cornucopia of awesome (see what i did there...wakka wakka wakka):<br /><br /><ul><li>anything pumpkin related. (pumpkin spice latte's are seriously the only sweet coffee drink i love)</li><li>apple picking. i want to go to there.</li><li>sweater/hoodie wearing. it's my favorite type of clothing. (actually fall has the best clothes in general as demonstrated by the brilliant <a href="http://ytupaltatambien.blogspot.com/2011/09/september-issue.html">mari andrew</a>)</li><li>halloween (i think i have an idea for a <a href="http://profile.ak.fbcdn.net/hprofile-ak-ash2/27546_115363745156339_5070_n.jpg">costume</a>)</li><li>leaves changing colors</li><li>orange and red gerber daisies</li><li>fleece blankets</li><li>football season starting (bear down)</li><li>shows coming back from hiatus </li><li>salted caramel<br /></li><li>soup</li><li>there's a certain sweetness that permeates the air that you carry with you all day.<br /></li></ul><br />in other news, i am two weeks into the new semester at work. i love my kids. one gave me the hunger games to read as well as two other ya books. devoured them over labor day weekend. riddle me this...why do young adult authors love to write about dystopian societies (i read the hunger games, delirium, and divergent)...maybe it makes the average sixteen year old feel better reading about being sixteen in a totally f*cked up alternate reality.<br /><br />i always kind of miss school when this time of year rolls around. i like the structure and comradeship of school.<br /><br />i realized i've been in colorado for five years. how is that possible? i miss chicago daily. i mean, don't get me wrong. i love my voice teacher, love the companies i sing with, LOVE the kids i teach...it's just not home.<br /><br />sometimes you watch the muppet movie before going to work on a thursday...don't judge. life's like a movie, write your own ending, keep believing, keep pretending.<br /><br /><br /><br />p.s. if you haven't seen this...it's amazeballs.<br /><br /><iframe src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/pcuI6K9daIw" allowfullscreen="" width="420" frameborder="0" height="345"></iframe>cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-68523704501917332272011-07-18T22:05:00.000-07:002011-07-18T23:03:26.087-07:00sweet dream or a beautiful nightmarei have been on the tail end of a summer illness. i hate that moment when you are starting to feel better but you still get tired quickly and for me, my voice still doesn't cooperate the way it normally does.<br /><br />last night, i took some nyquil before going to bed. the nyquil mixed with the summer heat led for the craziest dream i've had in a long, long, LONG time.<br /><br />the dream started with a road trip to new england with some of my denver friends (clander, wilberg, myhraface, and jarvie). we ended up somewhere in new england (which, in the dream looked remarkably like the fictional true blood, 'bon temps' town) to sleeping in the world's most ghetto tastic motel. we went to dinner and ran into andrew freeman who was there on a date with the dude from auto tune the news.<br /><br />my friends and i left new england and went to paris on vacation. i love how dreams can be entirely linear and make absolutely no sense...so we go to paris, we're out sight seeing for the day and i'm holding a giant white bag with everyone's phones except for eric's. in the white bag are various things, one of which is the tag to a mattress. now, why it's illegal to pull off a mattress tag, i couldn't tell you. but, i can tell you that somehow my subconscious hung on to that little nugget and i ended up getting arrested in france for having a mattress tag in my bag. i had gotten separated from the group but claire managed to find me and we convinced the police that it had been claire's niece, tiffany, who had actually taken the tag off and if they'd let us go get her she'd confirm that. they gave us one phone call and since we knew i had everyone's phone but eric's we called him. then eric and my friend brian came and broke us out of french jail and an epic chase scene ensued. it was at that point i woke up.<br /><br />i'm always puzzled by the brain. what it holds on to, what it conjures up, etc.<br /><br />sound of music opens friday. hoping my voice is back fully.<br /><br />harry potter was, epic. sad it ended. i won't go into great detail in case someone who's reading this hasn't seen it yet. i will say this: it is like saying goodbye to friends. sometimes parts of it go exactly the way you'd hoped and sometimes it doesn't quite feel settled.<br /><br />i'm kind of in love with this (admittedly, i'm a sucker for all things ukulele)<br /><iframe src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/Ck-oZhtpObQ" allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="390" width="640"></iframe>cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-8467368954406135032011-06-26T21:52:00.000-07:002011-06-26T22:29:50.043-07:00in time the rockies may crumble...i would like to make it abundantly clear...<br />palazzo pants look good on no one, NO.ONE.<br />but, they are truly heinous on children.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjdUKarDNDlwEkxlC_HRJGYYa9vB4JSMc4YbapzM7zxzsRvBZkcYJCHfM3gWs6P0LLw5Z-boZ1br2dlu7rbbq7D4R7OqEBt8zaCBBQQbslcP5SX0skuyCcEF9cLLLHJhyphenhyphenVBdzT8K0ESkL0/s1600/palazzo"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjdUKarDNDlwEkxlC_HRJGYYa9vB4JSMc4YbapzM7zxzsRvBZkcYJCHfM3gWs6P0LLw5Z-boZ1br2dlu7rbbq7D4R7OqEBt8zaCBBQQbslcP5SX0skuyCcEF9cLLLHJhyphenhyphenVBdzT8K0ESkL0/s320/palazzo" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5622762969006176034" border="0" /></a><br /><br />p.s. apparently <a href="http://www.singamilehigh.org/Bios%20with%20pictures/yvonnebio.html">choralography</a> is a thing...i for one am utterly amazed that it hasn't made it on to glee yet. come on glee, get on it.<br /><br />my netbook has died, so this is coming from dev's computer. he's super swell.<br /><br />i am so very exhausted. this weekend has been well worth it though. (speak easy bars ((green russell, what what)), wine talks, yogurtland adventures, sing a mile high, breakfast with former professors, voice lesson, psychic event, bad teacher, and dancing in a whole foods)<br /><br />i got to see and hang out with rollo dilworth today. i am always amazed at how humble and full of grace that man is.<br /><br />i was sad to be missing pride weekend at home. chicago, i love thee.<br /><br />i am barely able to keep my eyes open. i suppose i should finish watching woody allen's, 'alice' and then head to bedfordshire propperly.<br /><br />but, before i leave, i give you this:<br /><iframe src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/jeDEWKLNppM" allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="390" width="480"></iframe>cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-31462568739226178662011-06-21T01:01:00.000-07:002011-06-21T01:10:10.874-07:0024 hours can go so fast<p>an ode to eileen farrell. </p><p>eileen farrell is my favorite singer of all time (christine brewer being a close second). she was a singer's singer. i came across this interview and it just makes me love her and her similarly disproportionate body to mine even more. </p><p><iframe width="425" height="349" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/YPqm9MFmHx4" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen=""></iframe></p><p><iframe width="425" height="349" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/xwwwK-MNdNI" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen=""></iframe>t</p><p>also, if you've never heard her sing here are two clips to watch:</p><p><iframe width="425" height="349" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/A9bLMqztl0Y" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen=""></iframe></p><p><iframe width="425" height="349" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/e2zDPJ1FqXg" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen=""></iframe></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-67455414710411587792011-06-20T08:33:00.001-07:002011-06-20T08:45:23.888-07:00i've always depended on the kindness of strangers.<p>while, blanche dubois was bat shit crazy, the sentiment of depending on other's kindness is something we do share in common. (fun fact, tennessee williams once said had he written streetcar named desire later in life the character of blanche would have been male).</p><p>yesterday i drove across the heartland. illinois, check. iowa, check. nebraska, oh holy jesus. the sky turned a lovely shade of green and hail the size of softballs began coming down. there also was tornado warnings and sirens buzzing everywhere. i pulled over at a rest stop just east of gothenberg, nebraska. side note, why do people use rest stops to hook up. the smell alone would be enough to make me never want to schtupp there let alone the creepers who linger, and the suburban soccer moms with asymmetrical hair cuts...i start trying to call people who i knew would possibly be by a computer so they could give me information about what i was driving into. a nice woman at the rest stop who looked like she was married to a middle aged ken doll came up to me and asked me where i was going. i told her i was en route to denver and she told me that they were as well. she asked if i was traveling with anyone and when i told her, 'no' she took my number and called and texted me for the rest of my trip to make sure i made it okay and had survived the weather patches. it's little things like this that remind me of how humanity is still alive and kicking. we didn't talk about politics, or religion, or any other divisive topic. we stuck to the weather and my safety. i do believe that people care about people. (they just get misguided and money mongering). anyways, i'm back in denver. missing chicago. and probably missing you. (that's for like the two people who i think read this thing)</p><p>most in need of: coffee<br />song stuck in my head: ducktails theme song.<br />most unappreciated teenage mutant ninja turtle: donatello</p><p><br /></p>cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-41890572968712614182011-06-18T23:22:00.000-07:002011-06-18T23:36:46.889-07:00why, i wonder is my heart full of holes.<p>my last day in chicago was spent participating and celebrating with people i love dearly. i suppose that is all anyone can ever ask for. to love and know that they are loved. </p><p>my heart rips a little every time i leave this city. i just started mysting up in the shower and then i thought of this song.<br /><iframe width="425" height="349" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/th-DlJ3XsEI" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen=""></iframe><br />and i fall asleep counting my blessings.<br /></p><p>okay, enough of the sentimental and sappy. i'll be honest, my back and ass are not looking forward to the drive to denver tomorrow. if only i could install a massage chair in my little cherry baby (my car). at least i will be heavily armed with caffeine and tina fey's book on cd-'bossy pants' will see me through. if all else fails i can listen to warewolf bar mitzvah on repeat.</p><p>this was the recessional song today as well of one of my top five wilco songs...which is saying something 'cause wilco is totes my favorite band.<br /><iframe width="425" height="349" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/Z3tWXQbTpbM" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen=""></iframe><br />lurrrrve.<br /></p><p>okay, i'm going to attempt sleep so that i can drive 18 hours tomorrow. </p><p>jazz hands on monday morning. you know you're 32 flavors of jealous.</p>cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-43512303521877050712011-06-16T09:52:00.000-07:002011-06-16T10:30:58.735-07:00flacid weiner.<p><a href="http://www.npr.org/blogs/thetwo-way/2011/06/16/137204529/reports-rep-weiner-to-resign-today">apparently weiner is resigning today.</a> </p><p>throughout this process the thing that i have been most angered by is his hypocrisy.<br /><br />weiner was always a congressman who was a champion of women's rights.<br /> <iframe width="560" height="349" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/YiXh52zLaqA" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen=""></iframe><br />'it's funny how they don't respect a woman's life' an ironic statement from a man who's actions were so disrespectful. the victim in this is weiner's wife, huma abedin. pregnant with her first child and having her life crumble around her. they haven't even been married a full year. you know, he's not young, and he's already had an established career; he didn't need to get married for political aesthetic. why, would he choose to share his life with someone only to destroy it within the span of eleven months. i will never understand cheating. i will never understand taking the heart of someone and playing russian roulette with it. it's not just the action of weiner that baffles me. many a human has had their own narcissism, arrogance, and greed be their demise (john edwards, woof)...i really don't understand how, as a woman, someone plays the role of mistress. i would never want that done to me therefore i would never do it to someone else. maybe if you thought you truly loved the person i could see some sort of rationale in it, that's not to say i'd agree with the actions, just that maybe there'd be a grain of understanding. but, ruining someone's life (not weiner, but the wife's) for a twitter fuck is abhorrent...and if that makes me a judgmental bitch it makes me a judgmental bitch. <br /><br />you know, at least with republicans you know exactly what you're getting. you know that they view women as subservient to men. you know that their idea of political savvy is packaged in tidy, attractive, bat shit crazy packages ala michele bachmann, sarah palin, and christine o'donnell. </p><p>sigh, who will we have to combat republicans with intellect and snarkyness.<br /><iframe width="425" height="349" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/MB8yIejitAo" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen=""></iframe><br /></p><p>in the words of <a href="http://www.businessinsider.com/jon-stewart-the-anthony-weiner-story-officially-became-sad-monday-afternoon-2011-6">john stewart</a>, 'at 4:25 eastern standard time this story officially became sad'.</p><p>favorite chicago beer that's impossible to find: gumball head<br />morning breakfast companion: <a href="http://www.pedalpanam.com/">mamother effin' kelly</a><br />hardest part of the last few days: goodbyes.<br /><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-71524759372228361692011-06-15T23:08:00.000-07:002011-06-15T23:55:05.744-07:00a lunar eclipse of the heart.<p>is it wrong that i can barely see the screen (i took my glasses off and am too lazy to put them back on again) and am going to forge ahead with writing a blogalamadingdong? </p><p>first of all: the moon tonight totally reminded me of moonstruck (it also reminded me of, 'total eclipse of the heart' if you haven't seen the literal video for that song i'm attaching it so that your life can be complete). you know, cher's finest work. (johnny cammareri, what what)</p><p>my time in chicago is nearing an end. this always makes me painfully sad. i feel like everytime i leave there's a hole the shape of the chicago sky line in my heart. more than anything the streets of this city represent home to me. i feel settled, loved, and welcomed. </p><p>my hair kind of got into a ponytail today...a whole new world, don't you dare close your eyes. now, any dudes reading this probably doesn't care much about this news. but, ladies back me up on this. it's a monumental day in the hair growing out process when you can get it into some semblance of a ponytail. it's like the hair gods came down from above and anointed ye ol' follicles. </p><p>i have, 'count your blessings' stuck in my head...i blame <a href="http://davebjorlin.blogspot.com/">david bjorlin</a>. </p><p>i love rain, even when it's coming down in torrents. there's something so peaceful about sitting somewhere and listening to it come down. it's the weird fusion of stillness and movement. </p><p>song obsession of the day: jackson-johnny cash and june carter cash<br />favorite realization of the day: i am genetically wired to love pot lucks<br />movies of the day: 17 again, don't drink the water<br /></p><p>video as promised:<br /><object width="480" height="400" classid="clsid:d27cdb6e-ae6d-11cf-96b8-444553540000" id="ordie_player_e685c7e4ff"><param name="movie" value="http://player.ordienetworks.com/flash/fodplayer.swf"><param name="flashvars" value="key=e685c7e4ff"><param name="allowfullscreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed width="480" height="400" flashvars="key=e685c7e4ff" allowfullscreen="true" allowscriptaccess="always" quality="high" src="http://player.ordienetworks.com/flash/fodplayer.swf" name="ordie_player_e685c7e4ff" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object><div style="text-align:left;font-size:x-small;margin-top:0;width:480px;"><a href="http://www.funnyordie.com/videos/e685c7e4ff/literal-video-total-eclipse-of-the-heart" title="from Simpleton11">Literal Video - Total Eclipse of the Heart</a> - watch more <a href="http://www.funnyordie.com/" title="on Funny or Die">funny videos</a></div><p></p><p><br /></p>cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-34233389886935023782011-06-13T11:07:00.000-07:002011-06-13T12:01:23.131-07:00tony's recapi LOVE the tony's. it fuses three of my favorite things: gay men, theatre, and award shows. so let's talk about the good, the bad, and the weird.<br /><br />dear frances mcdormand, i love you like whoa...but this is the tony's not a bruce springsteen video or a mug shot. kthxbye.<br /><p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh_AKlt76YAF_JjAab_62_Jjhx62BInjoYQQslHTcwE25GPrwudgLPRiHhPC9amKvPC7JL0cAhG1PfL6yEkHUeePx6ASZuSCfWBnY1zNla_AZ1iE8HnFxM7puTbE_OG7l5g4Ux2lDkRBvM/s1600/frances+mcdormand.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 288px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh_AKlt76YAF_JjAab_62_Jjhx62BInjoYQQslHTcwE25GPrwudgLPRiHhPC9amKvPC7JL0cAhG1PfL6yEkHUeePx6ASZuSCfWBnY1zNla_AZ1iE8HnFxM7puTbE_OG7l5g4Ux2lDkRBvM/s320/frances+mcdormand.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5617768119790669602" /></a><br /></p><p>dear tony's. please have them host together next year:</p><p><iframe width="560" height="349" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/zkSpdvmXwDo" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen=""></iframe></p><p>hugh jackman, i love thee. </p><p>biggest, 'upset'...<br />i don't know if i would consider this an upset but i really thought the book of mormon was going to have a clean sweep. so norbert leo butz (who is a musical theatre demi god) winning was surprising. sorry andrew rannells (elder price in the book of mormon), you're still supermegalatorta awesome.<br /></p><p>so, is war horse like the lion king of straight plays? (ah pennsylvania, geek in a bowl)</p><p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi0oMGUZy0SsMSWtR-M3D3XzZHYDTWSARA_r4Xi-NbNLslFavYO-0TqvZ76zjo-GSKZV7Tu4LJJexHVVx2GPI2KyvN8ZYFPZJSoRG6lo7ouu9AV57Rh_8MizIxER-0qDEcG0LA0WfNF9AE/s1600/warhorse-415x324.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 234px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi0oMGUZy0SsMSWtR-M3D3XzZHYDTWSARA_r4Xi-NbNLslFavYO-0TqvZ76zjo-GSKZV7Tu4LJJexHVVx2GPI2KyvN8ZYFPZJSoRG6lo7ouu9AV57Rh_8MizIxER-0qDEcG0LA0WfNF9AE/s320/warhorse-415x324.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5617770253966117202" /></a></p><p>ellen barken sounds like a sexy man, and i like it. (p.s. all i ever want to hear her say is, 'you're not the one who got turned into human jiffy pop)</p><p><iframe frameborder="0" width="480" height="359" src="http://www.dailymotion.com/embed/video/xj9k58"></iframe><br /><a href="http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xj9k58_ellen-barkin-acceptance-speech-tony-awards-2011_school" target="_blank">Ellen Barkin Acceptance Speech Tony Awards 2011</a> <i>by <a href="http://www.dailymotion.com/KD5EY" target="_blank">KD5EY</a></i></p><p>i love stephen colbert, his wonky ear, and the fact that he's a song and dance man. i want to see this movie version of company but it's ridiculously expensive. i'm not willing to harvest eggs to go to the movies. </p><p><iframe frameborder="0" width="480" height="271" src="http://www.dailymotion.com/embed/video/xikpn0"></iframe><br /><a href="http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xikpn0_stephen-sondheim-s-company_shortfilms" target="_blank">STEPHEN SONDHEIM'S COMPANY</a> <i>by <a href="http://www.dailymotion.com/VideoDetective" target="_blank">VideoDetective</a></i></p><p>i still maintain my love of sutton foster but that her as reno sweeney is kind of, meh vocally. but, who doesn't love a good tap number, ey?<br /><iframe width="560" height="349" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/vwL-qFNgBas" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen=""></iframe></p><p>the spider man musical looks so very awful. although, it did bring up the question of whether or not spider man would ejaculate spider webs...food for thought.</p><p>best line of the night goes to chris rock:<br /><iframe width="560" height="349" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/ORE0fsgAiSw" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen=""></iframe></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-22362506936991899512011-06-13T10:48:00.001-07:002011-06-13T10:48:41.611-07:00friendlationshipstoday in talking with a friend about a guy they've been seeing i asked. well, are you going on dates or just hanging out? they replied aren't they the same thing?<br /><br />NO!<br /><br />okay, dudes, let me make this clear. there is a vast difference between hanging out and dating. if you have any intention on getting with someone make that clear...even if you're just feeling it out (or up...whatever the case may be) make it clear that you're on a date. what is the difference you may ask?<br /><br />being on a date has intention and purpose and some sort of direction. hanging out is cryptic, confusing, and the plague of evangelical men everywhere. so nut up, and speak your intentions if you have 'em.<br /><br />also, chicago is all types of gorgeous right now.<br /><br />music:mika-big girl (you are beautiful)<br />beverage-black coffee<br />t-shirt-teenage mutant ninja turtles.cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-66246645349316020332011-06-12T22:14:00.000-07:002011-06-12T22:57:25.122-07:00blogerrection<p>resurrection of the blog.</p><p>i miss musing in more than 140 characters. i've decided it's time to restart the blog.</p><p>book i'm currently reading: fool by christopher moore (it's great)<br />music i'm currently listening to: all things joni mitchell<br />current life motto: don't be fancy, just get dancy</p><p>every time i come home to chicago something i think a lot about is the notion of forgiveness. it comes over me like a deluge. home is a funny thing. it's where our fondest memories lie as well as our worst. for me, i used to fear running into my father so greatly i was constantly ill at ease. i couldn't walk down the street without checking over my shoulder or looking out the corner of my eye to make sure he wasn't somehow near by. now, i return home and feel so loved by my friends that i've stopped worrying so much about the prospect of seeing the man who single handedly attempted my destruction. it's amazing what love can conquer.<br /></p><p>i attacked midsommar like it was my job yesterday. gay men and swedish people galore. all i can say is i was called gay cat nip and danced a lot. this has all of the trappings of a delightful day. speaking of d-light...i still maintain that, 'groove is in the heart' is probably the best dance song ever. i mean, it does have q-tip after all. </p><p>so excited for carissa and aj's wedding. so sad to see my time in chicago nearing it's end. </p><p><br /></p>cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-56912603739020380482009-06-19T11:12:00.001-07:002009-06-19T11:13:34.296-07:00lifea-i'm not dead (yay for surviving toxic shock)<br />b-i'm doing dutchman this summer<br />c-some of my friends and i have started this <a href="http://artistswithdayjobs.blogspot.com/">blog </a><br />d-you should check it out<span style="display: block;" id="formatbar_Buttons"><span class="on" style="display: block;" id="formatbar_Add_Image" title="Add Image" onmouseover="ButtonHoverOn(this);" onmouseout="ButtonHoverOff(this);" onmouseup="addImage();" onmousedown="CheckFormatting(event);;ButtonMouseDown(this);"><img src="img/blank.gif" alt="Add Image" class="gl_photo" border="0" /></span></span>cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-46247947607169850232009-05-29T15:25:00.001-07:002009-05-29T15:25:16.632-07:00wonders...if you were allergic to your office would you tell someone?cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-78361453358327297142009-05-27T15:49:00.000-07:002009-05-27T15:50:25.347-07:00obsessionscurrent obsessions:<br />glee<br />russel brand's standup<br />whole foods iced americano's<br />aveda's confixer<br />awesomeness<br />neighborhoods in nyccyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-14061759571975363082009-05-26T11:31:00.001-07:002009-05-26T11:31:55.486-07:00i'm...alive...cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885943481156826157.post-10409568594019140362009-04-30T09:22:00.003-07:002009-04-30T09:22:32.522-07:00givin' it...the old kumbya.<br />do you ever have days where<br />all you want to do to people is scream<br />why are you such a dumb ass?cyclopticcupcakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07329111377991824918noreply@blogger.com2